My Best Friend

Once apon a time, not so long ago
I used to stand completely alone
It didn't matter, I had no friends,
So I thought it ment I wouldn't offend
But if something bad happened, something went wrong
I did it, it was me all along
So I embraced the pain, made it my friend
Because I knew no matter how hard I tried
I would never satisfy anyone's trends
In the end I figured pain would always be my friend
Because it was always there, no matter what
I know pain, I grew up with pain
Pain was always there for me
It was there when I watched my mother loose control,
There when father got cold
Pain was there when I slept on the streets
And there when I was rapped
Pain was there when I was alone
There when I cut my wrists
And watched as each new cut the sharp blade cut
Added to my puddle of crimson misery
Pain was there when I contemplated my suicide
Pain was there for every moment
"It will always be my fault"
Those five words, my last thoughts